I was stuck in searching for my dream job for some months or even years, not having any clue what could be the best thing I should strive for. Once I’d find it, I would give my everything to pursue this path. But I just can’t figure it out.

Yeah, you know that, too?

Okay. I’ve stuck in my current job for over a year now. After the learning phase I’ve realized that it was quite boring and I begun to complain, to look for something epic, for something my heart would want me to do. I’ve build more and more resistance on that topic. But lately  I’ve started to enjoy it as much as I can. I stopped complaining a lot, I’ve released some resistance, I’ve accepted that right now I’m doing this job and I’ve tried to enjoy the small things in the everyday work life. It worked. Now I feel happy sometimes, while being most of the time just bored. It’s still better than being frustrated or angry, but it’s not very enjoyable, too.

But this shift in my perceptions changed my point of view on “dream jobs”. Why should I search for something that I LOVE right now, when I haven’t figured it out yet? I can still keep my eyes open, while changing my job to something slightly better, right? Yeah.. that’s what I’ve realized. Surely it is the most beautiful thing on earth to do what you love for a living, but it’s quite nice to do something you like, too. I can find a job that’s a bit more enjoyable than this one, but still not my dream job and live happily ever after, too! At least as long until I really get bored again.

Searching for the “bit better job”

When I’m enjoying this right now, then I’d enjoy the same thing in another, but cooler enviroment. Or a cooler action in the same enviroment. Not everything needs to change, but just some small adjustments could make my worklife much happier. And then, when I’m in my new job, I still can keep my eyes open for something even more fulfilling.

I’m only 20. Why on earth should I freak out on finding my LIFE PURPOSE DREAM JOB right now, when I don’t even know life really well? I rather enjoy life right now, do something enjoyable and search for a quite more enjoyable job by the side. That’s it for now.

Be happy.

I’ve answered 9 essential questions about life which I found on Karen Knowler’s Raw Food Coach Website.

1) Do you have goals that stretch you?

Yes, I guess I have.
I want to publish a Rap EP.
I want to learn spanish and read 3 spanish books.
I want to learn 3 piano songs and play them blindly.
I want to write a book.

And I want to start changing people’s minds, teaching them that they are worthy of achieving anything they want. Teaching that they can do, be, or have whatever they want. Through the power of their minds and hearts. That’s a general statement, but more specific:
In the time span of one year from today I want to speak in front of groups of people about shifting your perspectives on life and helping them uplifting their lifes through new perspectives. In addition I want to sell ressources of information to help them to remember this information on a daily basis.

2) Do you have personal dreams for your life as a whole?

I want to achieve the 5 goals mentioned about in one year from now.
In 5 years from now I want to have my own appartment with my girlfriend. She and I will share similar interests in being creative, so we both want and create an inspiring, creative and wonderful feeling appartment for ourselves.
Also 5 years from now I want to be able to help my parents to live their full potential in life, while working less and having more fun.

3) How about for yourself as a person:

I am confident, good looking, healthy, fresh and clean, fit, dressed well and joyful. I’m following my own intuition and my heart, sharing love and happiness with others around me, uplifting the ones that want to accept my help.

4) If you could spend your time doing anything you wanted, what would that be?

I would act by inspiration and create products, services and experiences in all life areas. I would get an idea and start working towards it, attracting all neccessary components and starting to work on that project. I would film movies, write books, hold seminars, open cafes, raw food restaurants and raw food fast food restaurants, I would organize great orchestral gigs that play classical game music, etc. I would just do what I really want to do right now and DIVE into it as deeply as I want until it’s realized and automated, so I can leave it alone working, so other people can enjoy it fully. I would make movies, music, books, seminars, new technologies, and much more.

 5) If you could leave a legacy to the world, what would it be and why?

I want to tell anyone on earth that they can be whatever they want to be. That life is full of fun experiences waiting for us, that life is a gift and a miracle and such an abundant place to enjoy. I want to tell anyone that they are worthy of living live. Worthy of being here and existing. Worthy of being happy and joyful, of following their own heart and passions.

I want to tell anyone that they can follow their own heart and intuition, because it leads them to their path of most joy and fulfillment. They can change their reality by changing their thoughts, feelings and inner perspectives.
I want to tell them that they can be happy no matter what happens right now. They can be present and enjoy the pure existence without being attached to any outcome out there. Everything’s possible. For any of us.

Why do I want to tell anyone all of this?
Because I believe that it would make any human on earth more joyful, which leads to a joyful humanity, a joyful planet and new, incredible fascinating and exciting expansion and growth of EVERYTHING that exists!

6) Are you living your dreams?

I’m not living my dreams in the depth that I want to, because I feel like on the beginning of the journey. I still don’t know where exactly I need to go to find the specific paths towards my goals, but I know that they are somewhere in front of me. I want to trust my intuition that it leads me towards them. What’s especially stopping me? Hm.. I guess it’s my fear to follow my intuition one hundred percent all the time. I have peak intuition moments as I have low intuition moments where I’m still living in old terms, old habits and old perspectives, which don’t serve me anymore. I guess that if I’d leave my comfort zone completely for more than some hours a day, I’d change my reality completely in 30 days so that I won’t recognize my old me anymore.

It is a decision to be made, nothing more. Do I want to live less healthy or more?  Do I want to live less joyful or more? Do I want to live less dependend on other people’s opinions or more? Do I want to live in fear or do I want to live in trust? What’s stopping me is my fear of commitment, my fear of the consequences and my fear of letting my old life go.

7) Are you prepared to go after your dreams?

I am prepared. I can do it as fast or as slow as I want. There is no one who tells me which speed is more accurate. I can do half-time living on my purpose, living the other part in safety (out of fear). I could live full time on my purpose, too. Who decides what’s accurate is only me.

Although I don’t know the whole path, I know what I want and can become inspired to do the first step. There’s nothing I need to know more. In Addition, that’s the most exciting part about any goal: The uncovering of the dream and seeing it coming together step by step.

8.) If you knew that whatever one huge single dream you had would come true, what would that dream be?

I live prosperous, joyful, fulfilled and rich through showing, telling or teaching other people that they can be, do or have whatever they want and that they create their own reality through their thoughts and feelings. I want to see more and more people around me waking up to the fascinating life that we all share and be more joyful, more excited about life, following their own inner guidance and living in love for life.

It is imporant to me because that’s my dream for the world I’m living in. I want the people I meet to be happy, creative and excited about life. I want humanity to strive for new heights. I want to be on the leading edge of creating a completely new society of people who search for solutions instead of problems. I want humanity to expand and grow and achieve a new level of consciousness. I want all current world problems to be solved and humanity to focus on the new inventions. Of society, of technology, of life itself.

9) If someone a little braver than you could help you make your dreams come true, would you ask for their help?

Yes.

Are you able to answer those questions for yourself?

Hey Guys,

Today I want to share with you an article I’ve read about Not Giving A Fuck. It’s even called The Complete Guide to Not Giving a Fuck and is written by Julien Smith (a New York Times bestselling author). It’s great and that’s why you will read it now.

Good. This is the start of a series called Road to Happiness that will contain some great resources, which inspired me to all of this.

Remember happiness doesn’t depend upon who you are or what you have; it depends solely on what you think. -Dale Carnegie

I’ve experienced that my fear of rejection declined my happiness in life. We all have. But we do not need to do this anymore. I’m trying to break free from my thoughts about other’s opinions about me for some time now. It’s a long-lasting process, if you’ve experienced pain several times in your past. But it’s completely achieveable. If you read the article, you will now know how to do it. I’ve liked it as a good reminder because it summons many aspects of a happy life into one step by step task list.

First you need to stop giving a fuck, before you can create your dream life.

It is not what happens to you but how you respond to what happens to you.

I see the woman on the street. She’s crying miserably. I feel sorry for her, my heart hurts and I feel pain in my body. I watch her screaming and shouting to people passing by, ignoring her. I watch her crying lonely, yelling at god. I hear her saying there is no god. I hear her screaming to god again. I feel pain watching her. I feel sorry watching her. I am watching her.

Then I see a mother passing by, carring her child on her arms. The child is crying miserably. It’s turning round and round in the mother’s arms, crying, yelling and screaming.

This was the moment where I understood the woman’s journey. She’s just at the beginning of a new life. Her pain is guiding her towards her desires, disconnecting her from her old life. She is like the small child, but will grow and learn. Will become stronger and more confident. Will be able to love and to teach others.

Everything’s unfolding perfectly.

Anything you’ve manifested so far is the result of the vibration you’ve pondered and the steps you have taken. Now it is possible that you are unhappy with what you have manifested into your reality and want to change it. It’s simple, if you get the following point:

if your current steps and actions brought you to this life situation, other steps and actions will take you to other life situations.

Also your vibration will change – either you will change it deliberately or the new actions will change it step by step. The combination of your new vibration + the new action will bring you surely new life situations. 100%.

If you say you want to experience something new in your life, set your goal deliberately and imagine what steps you could take right now, without needing any prearrangements. If you are sure about your goal and it’s logical next step (even if it’s just a short one), adjust your vibration to the vibe of your goal. Feel it, milk the good feeling, imagine yourself accomplishing it. Only then take the first step and you will be much more effective that way.

Now watch out what the universe will bring to you. There will be drama, because the old life will not vibrate with you anymore and therefore change. And there will be new opportunities, which are aligned with your new vibration. Most people become afraid of the drama, wondering what’s going on, being stuck and frustrated. But the drama is a part of change, so be conscious of it and deliberately focus on the new direction you are diving into. Don’t let the drama affect or even change your vibration, or your new actions will be much more powerless. If you notice fear, be aware of it and change your focus on your goal. Watch where you’re going, not where you’re coming from.

Now go through the storm and be willing to change as much as you need for achieving your goal. There is no other constante than change you may have heard. It’s true, so be better willing to deliberately change instead of being forced by your circumstances. It’s your freedom. You will survive the storm quicker then you know.

I often feel uncertain about what to do next, what to do about life in general. Which path do I want to go? There are endless possibilities and the discovery that I could be whatever I want doesn’t help me much. I still need to decide which path I want to follow.

Everyday I hear sentences like “I don’t know what to do. God give me a sign. Higher Self what is my life purpose? What do I really love to do?” in my mind and believe me, that is not empowering!

I am uncertain about my future. But Steve Pavlina said in his article called Abuse of Power that certainty is a creation, not an observation. That would mean that my act of looking FOR certainty is senseless. You just need to create it. What a shame.

“It’s foolish to act like a victim of your own uncertainty when you’re the one who’s creating it in the first place.” – Steve Pavlina

Okay. I’m certain. I know what I want to do with my life.

This month I want to take a quantum leap in taking action outside of my comfort-zone, having courage and living consciously. Let’s see if this decision will affect me on March 31st.

Author’s Note: This is the start of a series about Minimalism and my pursuit of it. Feel free to share it via twitter & co.

Author’s Note: This is the start of a series about Minimalism and my pursuit of it. Feel free to share it via twitter & co.

The first time I heard about Minimalism was reading Zen Habits. I really like the idea of it being an extension of the known “Simplicity lifestyle”. Minimalism leads to freedom, clarity, true abundance and focus. Somehow, you gain more through having less.

I get clarity.

“The things you own end up owning you.” ~ Tyler Durden

Who am I? I’m defining myself like many others by the possesions I have. But who am I under all this stuff? I get clarity in my mind by creating clarity in my life. I want to relate only on truly important things, saying proudly: “That’s a part of me, of my life.” With Minimalism I can see easyly what I own and why I own it. If it doesn’t bring me joy, comfort or freedom, it needs to go. I declutter my mind by decluttering my space.

I get freedom.

I see myself traveling through foreign countries, only with one backpack with all my stuff. If you do not own much, you are able to move with nearly all of it from space to space. But I also sense another form of freedom. I’m free of attachment. I can not only know but experience that I do not need all of these fancy things to be happy.

I get focus.

No distractions on your desk. Sharp focus. Intense clarity. Deep calmness. Flowing creativity leads to impressive productivity.

I get true abundance.

I feel abudant independently of any circumstances around me. I don’t need to spend much money on stuff, so I safe more. I don’t need to spend much time on stuff, so I have more. I don’t need to spend much space on stuff, so I see more. Minimalism is creating pure abundance in my life.

Clarity, Freedom, Focus, Abundance and Joy. That’s why I love Minimalism.

it’s really simple:

1. define what you would like to experience and how it would feel.
2. focus on the pure feeling and believe you will experience it.
3. be happy in anticipation of what is coming to you.

the anticipation should make you feel great right where you are.

Source: Abraham Hicks

by Freewine

Today I want to talk briefly about something that touched me lately alot.
For me it was very hard to push myself to finish goals, or pursue some of my big dreams, or implement some necessary habits. All these things have one thing in common and I thought for a long time by myself that this one thing was just a lack of self-discipline. I mean, it’s obvious, isn’t it? But lately things changed. I’ve realized something different that these failures all had in common.  It was not a lack of self-discipline. I just did not wanted to do them. Not at all.

What the hell?

Yes I know. It sounds really stupid. But I got to tell you something about myself first. Soon after discovering personal development for myself I started to read a lot. I got some ideas about what really was possible in my life and saw many people doing great stuff. Some of them impressed me more than others. The greatest example will be Steve Pavlina. Oh hell I read a lot on his blog and I noticed patterns in his behavior. What he did, what he not did. And slowly I started to shift from focusing what I wanted, what my heart really wanted, to what my mind told me to want. I never realized the difference. But I started to set goals and dreams for myself that I got from outside of myself. From others. My mind told me what a dream life should be like. It’s like people who say their dream life would contain a villa, ten cars, a playmate as a wife and some fame. But when they achieve something similar, they realize that this was nothing than dust. I had the same experience just that I wasn’t materialistic at all and it all played in the field of personal development.

Some of the dreams were the same my heart wanted to pursue but my mind stayed in control and forced me to work on my goals whenever I had free time. I felt like I really wanted to but I never achieved anything significant through this method. My mind started to go crazy. Imagine me working on several different goals but none of them succeeded. I was confused. I asked myself the biggest question I could imagine: “What’s my purpose and passion?”

I still was confused and so I started to search. I tried to become a Rapstar. Rawfoodist. A full-time blogger. A Beat Producer. Novelist. Coach for Rap, the Law of Attraction or Rawfood. It was horrible because non of my goals really worked and I couldn’t understand why. My only answer was every time: “This is not my passion. I need to move on.” I really felt like a so-called “scanner” who never gets something done. I was frustrated, depressed and even considered to drop out of school. I really could not understand what was going on.

The Magical Helper

I was discouraged and created for myself a wallpaper saying: “I have clarity. I know my passion. I know the steps and goals for the dreams I want to achieve.” but I didn’t expected it to work at all. In the meantime I got to know a new girl, who is now a good friend of mine. We met because of social media and rawfood, but none of us was really into it, we both saw it like a future dream we want to accomplish as soon as possible so we had some sense of connection between us. We don’t really could go on without arguing a bit but I take all of her critisizm serious.  She told me that I was not myself. I was hiding behind the mask of several Steve Pavlinas or Leo Babautas. I did not understand a word she was saying there. But it touched me somewhere deep down and on the same weekend my girlfriend and I had a long conversation about some small problems we had in our relationship. It was weird but we figured out that I had problems to be myself again. I shut myself and my feelings down to protect myself and my girlfriend from “unnecessary problems” I wanted to solve for myself. I’ve read Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power Of Now” and wanted to get those emotions and thoughts out of my brain. I thought: “This is stupid! I don’t want and should feel like that. It’s not reality what I feel. I don’t need to feel this way.” and lied several times to my girlfriend about my mood.

But in reality this was exactly the problem. What caused myself to feel bad was her clinging to her best friend (male) but I had no reason to feel bad because I knew she loves me. But because of myself shutting down my emotions I got very cold to her and she needed heartiness from me. But because I was unconsciously unable to provide her with the feeling of love (although I REALLY wanted!) she walked over to her best friend. Unconsciously. What a circle.

So what happened after I’ve started to say what I was feeling? My ideal outcome of not feeling bad about the situation came in through what I feared the most! This is so incredible. Now the problem gradually gets solved because we both know what we need. Our love. And this started to open my eyes a bit. I started to tell others again what I felt AND told them, that I know I don’t need to feel that way and I was going to fix it. But for that time I just wanted to let them know.

What About The Passion Thing?

Well. A few days after these experience I had another fight conversation with that new girl. She told me again that I needed to stop doing something and watch myself. Zen stuff. I knew Zen but I didn’t understand again until speaking to my girlfriend. We revealed what I told you above. I was searching for my passion while using my mind. Ironically I even tried to ask my intuition and had no success, while I suppose that this small voice was screaming to me all the time. I just had not listened to it.

What did I did? I stopped to do something. I stopped and listened. What did my heart wanted right now? Shut up fuckin’ mind! Silence. Silence. And then a little voice appeared and told me things like go for a walk. Or read a book, a NOVEL again. No personal development stuff. Things I did very rarely. I was confused. But I did it. It felt good and .. nothing else. It just felt good. It wasn’t part of a goal, of a great plan. I wasn’t achieving something significant. I did nothing but enjoyed stuff. CRAZY. WEIRD. Is this life..?

Now I try to stop my mind thinking in terms of achievements. Successes. Goals. I just wanted to know what I really wanted first. Then I could move on. And until I don’t discover what my heart really pushes myself into I just will write or rap or eat or dance or draw or create what feels good to me.

I think this is called to “Go With The Flow”.